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The new do...

Ok. I spent a stupid amount of money on myself today. Some may even call it exorbitant But what price would YOU pay for a complete makeover that was so good you scare yourself when you look in the mirror cos you don't recognise the person looking at you? Or for a 2 1/2 hour salon experience that included the most relaxing head massage you've ever had? What price would you pay to walk out of the salon feeling like a whole new person? Thats what happened today. I cannot believe the difference in how I feel, nor how I perceive myself.

Maybe it's more symbolic than being just a new hairstyle. But just what does it really represent? I think it's a few things to be honest. Firstly, I now have a very constant and visual reminder that I'm going through a period of change. A very BIG change. I'm redefining who I am and this is a huge way of saying to myself, those that know me, and the world in general, "HEY, I'm not the person I was yesterday." Secondly, it's a change that really only impacted ME. I know there have been many good things that have come about as a result of me ending the relationship, for Zoe, for Stuart, and myself. But there has also been a downside. ALL of us have lost something, cried, and been hurt as a result of something I did. Thats not an easy thing to live with at times. But this hairdo thing is a decision I made that affected no one but myself. I did something that was only going to hurt, or benefit, ME. Lastly, I think it's about control. I'm in control over how I feel, my life, and how others view me. I can, and will, and have made changes to my life, and myself. Each time I look in the mirror I remember I have the courage, and I know I can do more.

You'll all have to be content for the time being with this pic which only shows the three new colors that are on top of my head, and NOT the really short back and sides :) I will try and get a decent before/after thing happening. Biggest problem with that is that Stu has the roll of film with the most recent photo of me on it and he's in another state right now...well that and the fact that every pic I've tried taking of myself today looks like shit. Partly cos I'm using the camera in my mobile phone and partly because I'm still figuring out how to style the new do! I'll try again tomorrow for ya ok? Chow for now, it's time for this shiny and new chicky to hit the hay...